Love letters not send. Part one.
Downtown Austin, Texas, May, 2008. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)
Love letters not send.
A Poem by Coyote Poetry
Love letter never send.
Dear Peggy
I wanted to drop a note. I left you after a week of joy and happiness.
Florida was beautiful. I enjoyed my time with you. I was glad you called
me and invited me to Florida. I have known you for 12 years. I still
remember you as a nineteen year old beauty. I remembered you loved to
dance and laugh. I know we have changed. You have found your way back to
me three times. Each time more colder and more bitter. I tried to make
you laugh. I send you a ring and called you. I asked you to marry me.
You said yes.
Somehow my wish to protect and love you have
create fear. You rarely answered the phone and when you do. You are
distant and don’t want to speak. I wrote the letter to tell you. I
understand. A woman who lost the desire to love. Can find peace only and
in flesh and in the booze.
I do understand. I tried to hide in the
booze and one night stands. You were the only spark of joy for 12 years.
I hope we are still friends. I remember the first time you came to me
in Ann Arbor. We made love for hours. We embedded our life for a moment.
I never expected you to stay and you escape again after a time.
Today it is a beautiful day in Texas. You would love the good people here.
They love to drink and dance. I go to Downtown Austin. I drink the long
Island ice teas and I wonder what you are doing? I would like to see you.
We never had a proper goodbye. I have never been a true lover
to anyone. I have always given only halfway. I thought we found some
sort of peace in Florida. Remember my sweet Peggy. I understand why you
love to run when the heart feel the impulse to come alive.
I hope you are doing well and you have found some kind of happiness. I’m okay. I
have Downtown Austin and the Long Island ice teas. Life is fair. I miss
you and hope one day we will find each other and not be afraid to truly
love.
All my love
Johnnie
Wish I could do that Charlypriest. How? Beautiful love letter Johnnie, rings true of real life not over the top romantic bullshit or that happy ever after lie we are sold through love songs and romance novels.
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I don’t know. I learn the hard way. Better to be honest than leave open doors with lies. Real life isn’t fair. I believe when we take chances. Always the possibility of a good ending. Thank you for reading and the comment.
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Honest is the key word. Without honesty no trust then the whole thing is built on a house on sand. I have been hurt so deeply I am afraid. You are right I may miss opportunities for love to find me but the pieces of my heart have only just been superglued back.
You are welcome.
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most of my “Forgotten Letters” section is love letters that were never sent and words that were never spoken… sometimes we’re left with so much baggage and the only way to get rid of it is by writing them off, even if it means that the other person will never see them.
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I have read letters on other sites. I like the use of letters to express thoughts and memory. I have a few letters I never send hidden somewhere. Sometime silence is better than words or actions.
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Nice love letter. You know what they say about love? True love is when you love that person to be happy even if it´s not with you.
I don´t think I´ve found that, hard to find. My ex-girlfriends…I just don´t think about them, so I don´t care who they´re with. I never see them again. Once it´s over it´s over. My motto is love them and leave them…behind. May not be the best motto but makes me feel much better.
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Good to forget the past. Just trying something different. I like the days of letters. More personal and allowed us to express thoughts and desire. Thank you for reading and the comment.
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