“I hope I make it till the Spring”
I hope I make it till the Spring.
A Poem by Coyote Poetry
A old poem. I learn I wasn’t important. I learn to be kind to friends and family. Silence is better then speaking negative words. I lost two brothers to suicide and walked on a thin line.
I hope I make it till the Spring.
The Spring is when the world comes alive.
When the Winter days fade away to memories and
warm days heat up the hearts and dreams.
Yesterday the cold of Winter was for us to hold on tighter,
to keep each other warm, but somehow life had become a
search for a reason to be.
I looked to the past, but I don’t feel hope.
I saw the many mistakes made.
I can see the many beautiful moment too,
I feel they haunt me more than the bad.
I remember when life was easy.
All dreams in reach.
Today I feel that my life has become a useless journey.
Just aiming at useless dreams, not needing affection.
Like love creates more pain than sweetness.
Where do you look to bring laughter where there is only sadness?
Where do you find smiles when life becomes only a journey toward death?
Am I a coward?
Because I fear tomorrow.
Am I the cause of my own pain?
I feel I have chosen my journey.
For I have touched the pinnacle of love,
reached power and money but I was never complete.
I never found happiness.
Maybe I chose the wrong direction.
I wish to be born anew.
I know only I can open the door to love and forgiveness.
I must find new dreams and hope.
Where do I begin?
I seen to fall on the same path. Money and work.
I don’t need friendship and I don’t even need the gentleness
of a woman touch.
Am I pass the road to know happiness?
Can I find the thirst to be happy?
Is it too late to learn to love?
I don’t know if i have any desire left.
In the Spring.
Maybe I will feel strong again.
Feel the energy of hope.
Maybe the warm days of Spring will rebirth the desire
to love and know laughter again.
In the Spring.
I will find hope again.
Coyote
John Castellenas
Home is where this hits. Love & healing to your family❤️
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Been a long time. Some memories stay with and leave you with a lesson. Hold silence and listen to family and friends.
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thank you
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Beautiful poem! Life brings so many surprises but courage and hope are very important.
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I agree. Thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.
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John,
I am so very sorry for the tragedy your family has endured. You are right, this life is very difficult and each day where you reach the end is viewed as successful. I have been in a very dark and hopeless place throughout my life as well but as you said, I credit my faith for sustaining me. It is by not means an easy walk throughout our journey as Satan is constantly trying to destroy us. True courage is choosing to live this life that has been placed before us in order to fulfill our purpose. I believe we all have a very distinct purpose but others will try to push us off the path we are supposed to be walking. Life hurts and God gives us to one another in order to gain strength and understanding. Thank you for sharing an incredible poem and an incredibly painful life event.
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Thank you Tina. Took a war and the kindness of strangers for me to be okay. I learn all people don’t want and need everything.
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It’s like you’re speaking my life. “I remember when life was easy.” Great poem – it’s one of the best I’ve seen posted on wordpress.
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You are very kind. A old poem. I lost two brothers to suicide in 1988 and 1989. Most of family never healed. I joined a war to find a good death. Dear God showed me a new purpose. I raised stepchildren and learn peace. Life is hard my friend. When kids decide death over life.
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