The letter

Dear Katie

I was lost in too many sad moments and I was tired. I was drained of hope to find a sweet love. I ran from sweet smiles and hid in dark taverns trying to be a ghost. Safe and sound from the disruption of love. Love had turned from sweet Summer wines and tender kisses to bittersweet endings and the goodbye.

I worshiped love once. I yearned for the new kiss and embrace.  I searched for the perfect love and I learn too late. You were my true love.  Your gifts of tenderness and opening up completely to the desperation of young and divine emotion. You have encased my heart. Our midnight confessions and laying nude in the comfort of our warm bed till noon is my daily sweet dream.

Yesterday I held you like you were my last breath. Today I yearn for things I cannot have. You wanted forever and I was just a stranger. Making promises to open doors where love should bloom and grow. I have learned your loneliness. Karma is a fair judge.  I have danced in the one-sided dance of love and need. Leave you empty and alone. Today I walk slower. I tell fewer lies.  I learn tears can teach you to be kind and wiser.

I know you have found a new lover. I heard he worshiped you and his only goal is your happiness. I don’t seek forgiveness. You have given me this months ago. I wanted to tell you. You taught me love is real. Not a game or sport. I wrote these words. To apology and to wish you well. I wanted to tell you dear Katie. Every act of love is a gift. You are a beautiful and a wonderful woman. Don’t accept less than you deserve.

Coyote/John Castellenas