I don’t remember how you looked….


I don’t remember how you looked.
I don’t remember how you looked.
Your eyes were blue, maybe hazel green?
Your hair golden blond or maybe strawberry red?
I try to describe you and each time I remember less.
Sometime I dream of grasping your hair,
our bodies fighting for the sake of pure pleasure.
You calling out my name, words of love.
You spoke only in the turmoil of sex.
I yearn to see you still.
Your sweet hello’s were sweet and long.
Our goodbyes were long and written deep into the walls of my heart.
I remember your long legs.
You dressed like a woman.
But had the hunger of a child,
seeking the education of the tongue, the touch and the long ride.
I don’t know if you remember me,
I still seek you.
Your hunger was to become mine
and my hunger was to touch you again.
I lost you on a cold Spring day,
I became old as you walked away
with tears and too many words spoken.
I released you for my hunger was to have you forever.
You were seeking a place to rest and get strong again.
Your wish to be free, was more powerful than mine to
in imprison an angel.
I still wish for a gentle knock on my door.
To hear your sweet hello,
fall into your arms again.
Life is only fair in sweet dreams.
I wish to see you,
to look into those beautiful eyes.
To remember how you looked.
John Coyote
1984/rewrite 2012
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Thank you dear Virginia.
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That hurt my heart a little…not sure what it could mean but many scenarios play out in this. Well done.
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A very old poem. Written in 1982. Left a girl in Germany and us, who love to write. Had to put to paper, some words. Thank you Ricky for reading and the comment.
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I feel that. Sometimes you have to write it down in the moment while the feelings still fresh.
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We must. In 1976, I was given a journal. I have 80 of them now. A writer need a small journal to write down their thoughts. Salinger kept a journal. I would love to read his journals from his war time in Germany. 1943-1945.
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Oh my…imagine someone reading those journals into your life years after you’ve gone. What would they learn?
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They would learn. You will change life often and you shall make many mistakes. After the hard days, the good days, you will appreciate. In the memory of love. We will learn, we will have many great loves. Love of the family is the wealth of a lucky man.
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sometimes people forget the wealth of family and love because of material material wealth, so if they were to read and find out your wealth in family maybe it would change their lives. Who knows, words are bountiful and can effect people deeply whether they are from the past or present.
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I agree Ricky. I found my proper place at 36 years old.
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Sometimes it takes awhile to find that place in your life.
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