The crying woman… Chapter four to seven.

The crying woman…Page four.

I went back to my room and I called my mother. I told her, I would send her eight hundred today to the western union. She was happy and she asked. Where did the money come from? I told her. Good luck at the casino. I was twisted-up. I was given a thousand dollars for what? I remember the crying woman and I wondered. Should I run or stay? I decided to stay. I wondered was I falling into a end-less trap. I left the room at noon to send my mother the money and I went to the hotel female clerk. She knew my name and she told me. Miss Carolina  Your room is paid for till the end of the month and someone picked-up your car. He left a card. The card had “Joe’s repair and toll”.  On the card he wrote. One week, the car will be fixed. Thank you Joe. I left the hotel and I found the Western Union. I send eight hundred dollars to my mother and I would check later to ensure she received. I found good food to eat and I watched the busy city move and go somewhere. I went back to the hotel at three am. I read the note again. Casino, conversation, well dressed and smelling good. I took a long shower, shaved my legs, washed my hair and I brushed my hair for twenty minutes. I stood-up in front of the mirror and I told myself. I am still looking good. A young man hope and a old man dream.

I found my knee-high red dress and my red shoes. I put on my silky low cut-bra and my red thong panties. I left my legs bare and the red shoes. Low-cut and easy to wear. I stood in front of the mirror and I smiled. I told myself. You are worth a million dollars honey. Still looking good. I put on the red dress silky dress and my red shoes. I looked at the mirror again and I saw a different woman. Something was changing in me. I wondered was I doing the right things? I had no option now. I made a deal with Marcello. The devil never lose and I knew he was a bad man.

Page five.

I arrived at the El Dorado at six pm. It was filled with many people. Most were busy using the slot machines and playing blackjack. They did notice me, I was glad. I was waiting for a man name Lawrence. It was very noisy and I wanted to leave as soon as possible. I felt a soft touch on my shoulder and I turned. I saw a good looking, well-dressed middle age man with a smile. He told me my name is Lawrence and he handed me his I.D. I read his name Lawrence Castillo from Mexico city. I read the license and I reached-out my hand and I told him, my name is Carolina. He took my hand and he told me. Marcello said you are beautiful and he told me the truth. I don’t gamble Carolina but I wanted us to meet in a busy location. I wanted you to feel safe. I told him, thank you Lawrence. I don’t like loud places either. He smiled kindly and he told me. I know you are new and I like this. Marcello said you were smart and confident. I like woman who talk, laugh and are still alive with hope. Tonight some good food, a show and some dancing. I have been marry for thirty years in a dead marriage. I decided better to find someone who can make me smile, even if I must paid for. Love isn’t free, friendship isn’t free. I need someone to enjoy life with, even if is a short time only Carolina.  It this okay Carolina? 

I smiled and I felt safe with him. I told him okay. He had a car and a driver. He asked me, what is your favorite food? I told him, anything spicy and hot. He took me a Asia restaurant and the food was so delicious. I didn’t remember eating a good meal like this in many years. He said little and he asked me. Dear Carolina, what music do you love? I do him, I love the Jazz. We went to a Jazz club. The drinks were so good and the music so good. I told him. Thank you Lawrence. This is one of my best nights in a long time. He told me. I love the happiness in your eyes and I feel happy that I can make you smile. I know life is hard. We feel like we cannot win. Are you ready to dance? What is your preference tonight? I told him. I like the country music. Easy to dance to and we can get close. He smiled and he told her. Tonight we will waltz and Texas two-step till morning. I laughed for the first time in years. We found a dance hall and we danced till twelve pm. Lawrence told me. You smell good, you feel good  and I love the feel of your dress again my skin. I had the best night ever my beautiful Carolina. He kissed my forehead and a soft kiss on my lips. We left the dance hall and he took me back to the hotel. He kissed me on the forehead and my lips and he asked. Can I see you tomorrow? I told him okay.

The crying woman

I went back to my hotel room and I took off my dress and I kicked off the shoes. I sat in my panties and bra. I told myself. Maybe this will be okay? I was very tire and I fell asleep quickly. At seven am, I heard a light knock and a envelope was pushed under the door. My name was on the envelope. I opened the envelope and it was twelve one hundred dollar bills and a note. Marcello wrote. You did well Carolina and thank you. Please buy a new dress and a pair of shoes. Something nice for you. Lawrence requested you again at three am. He is impressed with you. He told me, you made him smile and laugh again. You were a happy and confident woman. It was almost eight o’clock and I was hungry. I left the hotel and I found a breakfast restaurant. I ordered a large meal. Three eggs, three pancakes and four pieces of bacon. I went to Western Union and I send my mother seven hundred dollars and I went shopping. I bought a blue short dress to show off my strong legs and a pair of blue shoes. The dress left my shoulder bare. Showing off my family jewels. My large breast, there were a bear to maintain. Now I appreciate them. The dress and shoes costs three hundred dollars and I love how the dress fit my body. I looked young again, not tired and worn out. I bought three thongs of pink, red and black. I did love them. A woman fancy, sexy things to wear.

I went to the coffee shop at noon and I ordered my coffee strong and black. The coffee had a bite and it was so good. The woman server told me. Was a Bosnian blend. I felt eyes upon me and I looked-up. Marcello stood smiling and he requested to sit with me. I told him yes, of course. He sat down and he asked. Did you receive your envelope this morning? I told him, yes and thank you. He smiled and he told me. Lawrence enjoyed your company. He told me you are well-mannered, smart, dance well and you talk with class. You were a pleasure to be near. You gave him a night to be remembered. Did you buy a new dress Carolina. I told him yes and thank you Marcello. He pointed at the busy street of Reno and he told her. I love the Devil’s den. Here in Reno we accept pride, greed, wrath, lust, envy, gluttony and sloth, a acceptable part of us. Sin, gin and sex. The things people need and they are afraid to admit the needs. She looked at him hard and she told him. I have nothing to give Marcello. I have a daughter, a sick mother and a broken down car. I will lose my daughter to a hateful ex-man. I have worked and worked. I have nothing to show for. I was a slave for a large company. What did I gain? Desperation?

Marcello took her hands and he whispered to her. You can have everything you need dear Carolina, but you must be willing to give everything away you love or hold dear. She held silence for a few minutes and she asked him. What value am I to you? I am almost thirty years old and I am tire. He held her hand tighter and he kissed her right hand. He told he. You are a pearl hidden away dear Carolina. You are still beautiful, you have pride and strength. You are not lamb, you are a lion. If you wanted. You could control your world, not the world control you. Lawrence like you a lot and if you desire. After tonight, if you want. You can have everything and more. Lawrence can offer you a wonderful life, but the payment can be heavy. She asked him, am I a high price whore? He smiled and he told her no.  You will become muse, siren, temptress, demon and angel. On a chosen day, you could be all of them. The people who stay in Reno. They learn. All of us are whores for something.

I went back to my hotel and I wanted to run away. I knew what I must do. Run away or stay? If I stayed, I won’t be able to return to who I was. Maybe Reno was my place? I went to the desk clerk, a pretty female and I asked her. I saw a crying woman in the hallway. Her face turned cold and scary. She told me. Never talk to them. If you hear them, call security. I asked her. was the woman dangerous? She took my hands and she whispered. When the dead speak, we must listen. They come to see us for a reason. She released my hands and I ran toward my room. I took a one hour bath, did my make-up lightly. I sat nude in front of the mirror. I grasped my breasts and I told myself. Tits like standing soldiers and a round and firm ass. A million dollar lady. it was almost two pm and I took a short nap.

The crying woman…Chapter seven.

At three pm, I was waiting for Lawrence. I felt good and the weather in Reno was perfect. High seventies and sunny. I loved my new dress. It showed off my bare legs and strong calves. The knee high dress allowed my pale skin to feel the sun upon me. I felt strong and beautiful. Two days ago, I was going to Ohio for a opportunity and now I am selling my ass. What the fuck I thought. I felt scared for a minute. I remembered the crying woman and I wondered. Was I the hamster in the cage now?

Would I become the crying woman? Lawrence showed-up in a Mustang convertible and I went to the car. He smiled and he told me. Please get in the car and we are off to a grand adventure. I got into the car and we drove to Midtown. Where the wealthy people lived. He told me. I love when your ginger hair is free and your eyes today. The hazel eyes, now baby blue are wonderful. He drove into a long driveway leading to a large house. I saw a indoor pool and a fancy house adored in Greek art. He had many cars and I saw no people. I asked him. Is this your home? He smiled and he told me. This is one of many dear Carolina. The Midnight oil ensure I have places where I can live in comfort and be a ghost. I love Reno. We are just ghost in the city of sin. We need to celebrate life, know pleasure, be fearless and swim in happiness. Life should be simple dear Carolina. I need a kind woman, good drink, the China molasses and never tasting the sin of dirt again.

I asked him, what is China molasses? He smiled and he asked her. Have you try the opium yet? Opium is the medicine of the wise. Your opium dreams belong to you. It opened up the mind to the wonder of everything and you will know euphoria of things you cannot see or know now. She thought a minute and she told him. My mind is heavy and maybe the China molasses can relax my mind? What are we doing today Lawrence? He took my hands and he told me. We will get acquainted. We will enjoy the pool, eat a good dinner of seafood and prime rib. And later a show in the city. I told him, I brought no bathing suit and the food sound so good. He told her. The room near the pool, many bathing suits. they are new and I hope you like? I picked them out myself and I guessed your measurements. I hope I did well? I told him, you are very kind and generous to me. I appreciate and I don’t deserve. He smiled, he took my right hand and he kissed my hand/. He told me. You are pearl that was hidden away in a shell. You have been locked-up, lied to and now you will learn the truth. When we understand, life should be pleasure and more pleasure. Skin, gin and sin. The three muses we need in a life filled with danger, excitement and hell-bound wishes. We must know. Please Carolina, get dress and I will make us some good drinks to enjoy. I will meet you at the pool with the fresh drinks.

I found the dressing room and I saw five new bathing suit, still wrapped and they were so beautiful. They were expensive and classical. I took the dark blue one, a two piece and I tried on the bathing suit. I looked into a mirror and I told myself. He guessed my size perfectly. I didn’t try on the other ones. I loved the blue bathing suit. Made my pale skin looking tempting. I liked how my body looked and I remember. I haven’t been sexy for anyone in so many years. After the birth of my child. My ex-husband loved the bars and the drink more than me. I saw a different woman in the mirror. I liked her and I wondered. Where was I heading? I went toward the indoor pool and Lawrence stood-up. He told me. You are a Goddess, a poet’s dream, you are. Please sit and tell me a story. He gave me a Tom Collin and he asked me. If something else suit your taste, pleas ask? I told him. Tom Collins are my favorite. Easy on the head and so tasty. I told him, I was a accountant for a large company and they moved to Texas. I have a child and my mother is sick. I don’t know what is happening here? He looked serious and told me. Life should be simple. We should be happy and know some peace. Here In Reno, all sins are forgiven. What was done here in Reno. Stay done. No clean people in this world dear Carolina. You are beautiful, a ginger hair goddess and you have learn to accept little. Maybe if you desire, you can have more? She laughed at his words and she told him. What do you want from me Lawrence?

Johnnie/Coyote