The crying woman..

The crying woman- page nine, ten and eleven.

We went to the jazz club and the music was wonderful. The club had a dance floor and after the many drinks kicks in. We danced to the music. We danced for hours and he would steal a kiss and tell me. I was beautiful. I felt good for the first time in years. He held my hands and he told me. A early night dear Carolina. He took me back to the hotel at twelve midnight and he told me. I will see you tomorrow dear Carolina and thank you for the wonderful night. I went to my room light-headed and I heard someone crying. I followed the sound of the crying and in the deep hallway of the hotel was a crying woman with her head in her lap. She looked-up and she told me. They will give you everything, steal and steal from your soul and your beliefs. You will learn to love greed, lust and gluttony and you will forget everything you loved and knew. The Devil dresses in fancy suits and they can twist the truth and he can spin a lie. If you stay. Reno, the Devil’s den will add you to her numbers of people lost in the lost and found. Never to be found again. You will die alone. I went to touch her and she got-up quickly. She walked away from me and she disappeared into the air in the distance. I thought I was losing my mind and I returned to my room.

I stripped to bare-ass and I climbed into my bed. I wondered, should I stay or leave? Was the crying woman, a warning? I fell asleep and I awoke at seven am. There was a envelope with fifteen hundred dollar bills and a note. Marcello wrote her. Lawrence is vey happy. He told me to tell you. Have everything you own packed and ready. Today at noon, he will take you to your new home. I left the hotel and I called my mother. She asked me, where did you get the money, honey? I told her. I found  a good job and I heard sadness in her voice. I asked her, what is wrong mom after a long silence. With sadness in her voice, she told me. Paul came with a court order and the court gave him 100% rights to Silvia. He took her away and she was crying your name. When will you return home? I started to cry and my mother asked. Are you going to be alright honey?  I told her. I will be alright and I am sending you a thousand dollars today. Please buy your medicine and I love you mom. She told me. Thank you for the money dear. The bills are pay and I have enough food to cook and eat. I miss you. Remember, you will always be my baby girl. I told her. If you need anything, please ask Mama. She told me. All I want is you to be alright, we can overcome this and baby girl. I am here for you always.

I found my breakfast restaurant and I ate lightly. I wanted to cry and I knew. There was nothing I could do. I went to the coffee shop and Lawrence joined me. He asked me. Dear Carolina, are you okay? I smiled and I told him. I am okay, just some family problems. He looked serious and he asked. Do you need help? I told him, thank you Marcello. I create a mess and I must live in the mess, I create. He took my hands and he told me. Thank you for making Lawrence happy. You are my angel and he told me. You made a old man smile. I was thinking. My heart was broken and today I felt empty and alone. I hated everything in this second and I had nothing to lose no-more. Maybe Reno was my place now? I thanks Marcell and he tossed a twenty dollar bill on the table for my coffee. He smiled and he told me. Best way to feel better. Buy something new and beautiful. I left him and I went to the Western Union. I send the thousand dollars to my mother and I found a fancy dress shop. I fell in love with a knee-high and sleeveless peach colored dress and I bought peach colored shoes. I bought some black silky stocking and I stood in my new dress and shoes. I looked into the mirror and I told myself. Fuck everything, fuck everybody.

 The crying woman-  page ten

I went back to the hotel room. I packed slowly and the new dresses, I left on the hangers. I tossed away my old bras and underwear. I held a old pair of my underwear. I laughed and I told myself. No-more grandma underwear and bras. My three old dresses I kept. They were cotton and in the Reno hot days. Needed the light Summer dresses. I took a long shower and I put on my new peach dress and I loved the feel of the dress again my skin. The lady at the store told me. Made with China silk and I was the most beautiful lady in Reno. I had two suitcases were filled-up and I held my two dresses. Lawrence came at noon and he helped me put the suitcases into the car. He told me. He loved my dress, made my hair look like a wild Summer day. Made my pale skin come alive and so tempting. He asked me, was I okay? I looked away from him and I told him. A hard morning and my first tears begin to fall. He came to me and he hugged me gently and he told me. The world can be shit sometimes dear Carolina. We must attempt to make the world better. We must paint our world colorful and hopeful, where we can win sometimes.

He took me to the new town houses in Midtown and he helped me carry my suitcases and dresses into the house. We stood at the door and he handed me some keys. He told me. This is your home now, if you want? Your old car is fixed and the car is in the garage. Let’s look at your new home. I unlocked the door and I saw a brand-new clean and perfect home. The house was lightly furniture and had many windows. I loved the Mexican art on the walls and I wandered into the modern kitchen. The kitchen was ready. Had a coffee maker, three-piece toaster maker and was fully stocked with food. I went to the bedroom, a king size bed facing the window and a large shiny bathroom. We went to the living room and we sat in the leather furniture and I told Lawrence. I love the house. He told me. I left the house lightly with furniture and artwork. You can decide what you need. I bought you a  boat load of books, on the bookshelf. I hope you like. I held silence, not believing this to be true. He went to the small bar in the right corner of the living room and he made some drinks. He told me. I ensured, you have a good assortment of good drink. Sometime with the heat of Reno. Better to stay home and leave the heat outside. I have your Johnnie Walker, many tasty rums and tequila. He brought two Tom Collins and two double shots of the Johnnie Walker. He gave me the drinks and he told me. Do you like Carolina? If you want to stay. We will toast to your new home and your new life. I raised the Johnnie Walker to the sky and we touched glasses. I told him. To my new home, my new friends and my new life. I hope and pray better than yesterday. We drank the whiskey and I told him. Thank you Lawrence for being with me and the shit, we learn to swim in.

Lawrence went to the bar and he brought back the Johnnie Walker and he poured the glasses filled again. They touch glasses and drank the whiskey. He told her. Can I do anything for you? She smiled and she told him. Please take me to the king size bed, get me naked and make me forget who I am. He laughed at her words and he told her. We must do something first. I have seen darks things and I have seen the light. Now I do things to make me feel better, more prettier. The ancient people been using for 5000 years. The dream gun make the messy world seem far away. He took my hand and we walked toward the bedroom. I waited on the bed as Lawrence prepared a ivory and fancy opium pipe. He had a large case with some tools. I watched him lite the pipe and he loaded a white/brown chemical into the pipe. He asked me. Have you done opium Carolina. Opium is cool, your opium dreams belong to you. No-one can take them. He sat with me and I took the pipe. I smoke slowly, shallowing the smoke deeply. I smoke the pipe four times and I took deep breathe feeling my mind, my body become lighter. I saw him smiling as I laid upon the bed. He took off my shoes, caressed my feet for a long time. He watched my eyes closed and I wandered away to wild dreams. I remember rising up, I took off my dress, my panties and released my bra. I laid nude upon the bed and Lawrence stripped off his clothing and he joined me on the bed. He caressed my legs, my stomach and my breasts. I remembered long kisses and many hands on my willing skin. I fell into the opium dreams and my body came alive. I felt like I was dancing freely without doubt of my needs. I remembered Lawrence whispering to me. You are so beautiful Carolina.

 

The crying woman- page eleven..

I awoke at nine am. I drank two cups of black coffee and I tried to remember the night. Marcello called me at nine thirty am and he said. Hello dear Carolina and how are you? Lawrence will return at six pm at you home. I would like to see you at noon, if possible? I told him okay, I am fine and how are you? He told me. I am fine dear Carolina. Please look good, please smell good and I look forward to seeing you. I asked him. What am I doing today? He told me. You are already a Reno legend and I want you to meet some new people. I took a quick shower, I put on my blue thong and low-cut blue bra. I would wear the blue dress, make my body look more strong and tempting. I roll on the blue silky stockings and I wondered. What was I doing?

Marcello send a car to pick me up at eleven thirty. The driver was polite and he took me to a private club. Many men and women of all ages, races and color were drinking, talking and watching each other. They were well-dressed and well-mannered. Marcello found me and he introduced me to Andrea. A gorgeous red hair woman with big tits, small waist and a large ass. She hugged me and her dark brown eyes dig into my eyes. She kissed my face and my lips. She told. I believe I have fell in love with you already. She told Marcello. She is a delight, not spoiled by the Devil’s den yet. Let’s go to my private room and Marcello, you can go elsewhere. She took me to a beautiful room. Many soft seats around the room and long single bed in the center. There were no mirrors. she went to the corner and she prepared a opium pipe of many colors of ivory and larger than Lawrence pipe. She told me. I heard you like the Dream gun. Me too Carolina. Before I found Reno. I made money for  large companies and now I work less, make more money and play more. We must learn. Everybody want something. What do you want Carolina? Is life waiting for death or should we dance with death? I smoked the opium first taking four deep breathe. She laughed at me and she told me. Be careful dear Carolina. Opium is tricky. I buy the best you can buy and you must allow Aunti Emma to slowly take you. She took two deep breathe and I felt her hands dancing on my skin. I felt the warmness of her lips against my lips. I remembering wanting more and I remembered many hands upon my skin, twisted faces and bodies moving against my body in a wild dance. It seem to last forever and I awoke alone in my bed and I realized. I was just meat, just skin and flesh to be used. The saddest part. I didn’t care. I had a house, food, money for the first time in my life. I told myself, working for rich men and women. I was a low paid whore in California. I know what I become. A high paid whore in Reno.

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