The crying woman.. page 5-8.

 The crying woman

I went back to my hotel room and I took off my dress and I kicked off the shoes. I sat in my panties and bra. I told myself. Maybe this will be okay? I was very tire and I fell asleep quickly. At seven am, I heard a light knock and a envelope was pushed under the door. My name was on the envelope. I opened the envelope and it was twelve one hundred dollar bills and a note. Marcello wrote. You did well Carolina and thank you. Please buy a new dress and a pair of shoes. Something nice for you. Lawrence requested you again at three am. He is impressed with you. He told me, you made him smile and laugh again. You were a happy and confident woman. It was almost eight o’clock and I was hungry. I left the hotel and I found a breakfast restaurant. I ordered a large meal. Three eggs, three pancakes and four pieces of bacon. I went to Western Union and I send my mother seven hundred dollars and I went shopping. I bought a blue short dress to show off my strong legs and a pair of blue shoes. The dress left my shoulder bare. Showing off my family jewels. My large breast, there were a bear to maintain. Now I appreciate them. The dress and shoes costs three hundred dollars and I love how the dress fit my body. I looked young again, not tired and worn out. I bought three thongs of pink, red and black. I did love them. A woman fancy, sexy things to wear.

I went to the coffee shop at noon and I ordered my coffee strong and black. The coffee had a bite and it was so good. The woman server told me. Was a Bosnian blend. I felt eyes upon me and I looked-up. Marcello stood smiling and he requested to sit with me. I told him yes, of course. He sat down and he asked. Did you receive your envelope this morning? I told him, yes and thank you. He smiled and he told me. Lawrence enjoyed your company. He told me you are well-mannered, smart, dance well and you talk with class. You were a pleasure to be near. You gave him a night to be remembered. Did you buy a new dress Carolina. I told him yes and thank you Marcello. He pointed at the busy street of Reno and he told her. I love the Devil’s den. Here in Reno we accept pride, greed, wrath, lust, envy, gluttony and sloth, a acceptable part of us. Sin, gin and sex. The things people need and they are afraid to admit the needs. She looked at him hard and she told him. I have nothing to give Marcello. I have a daughter, a sick mother and a broken down car. I will lose my daughter to a hateful ex-man. I have worked and worked. I have nothing to show for. I was a slave for a large company. What did I gain? Desperation?

Marcello took her hands and he whispered to her. You can have everything you need dear Carolina, but you must be willing to give everything away you love or hold dear. She held silence for a few minutes and she asked him. What value am I to you? I am almost thirty years old and I am tire. He held her hand tighter and he kissed her right hand. He told he. You are a pearl hidden away dear Carolina. You are still beautiful, you have pride and strength. You are not lamb, you are a lion. If you wanted. You could control your world, not the world control you. Lawrence like you a lot and if you desire. After tonight, if you want. You can have everything and more. Lawrence can offer you a wonderful life, but the payment can be heavy. She asked him, am I a high price whore? He smiled and he told her no.  You will become muse, siren, temptress, demon and angel. On a chosen day, you could be all of them. The people who stay in Reno. They learn. All of us are whores for something.

I went back to my hotel and I wanted to run away. I knew what I must do. Run away or stay? If I stayed, I won’t be able to return to who I was. Maybe Reno was my place? I went to the desk clerk, a pretty female and I asked her. I saw a crying woman in the hallway. Her face turned cold and scary. She told me. Never talk to them. If you hear them, call security. I asked her. was the woman dangerous? She took my hands and she whispered. When the dead speak, we must listen. They come to see us for a reason. She released my hands and I ran toward my room. I took a one hour bath, did my make-up lightly. I sat nude in front of the mirror. I grasped my breasts and I told myself. Tits like standing soldiers and a round and firm ass. A million dollar lady. it was almost two pm and I took a short nap.

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At three pm, I was waiting for Lawrence. I felt good and the weather in Reno was perfect. High seventies and sunny. I loved my new dress. It showed off my bare legs and strong calves. The knee high dress allowed my pale skin to feel the sun upon me. I felt strong and beautiful. Two days ago, I was going to Ohio for a opportunity and now I am selling my ass. What the fuck I thought. I felt scared for a minute. I remembered the crying woman and I wondered. Was I the hamster in the cage now?

Would I become the crying woman? Lawrence showed-up in a Mustang convertible and I went to the car. He smiled and he told me. Please get in the car and we are off to a grand adventure. I got into the car and we drove to Midtown. Where the wealthy people lived. He told me. I love when your ginger hair is free and your eyes today. The hazel eyes, now baby blue are wonderful. He drove into a long driveway leading to a large house. I saw a indoor pool and a fancy house adored in Greek art. He had many cars and I saw no people. I asked him. Is this your home? He smiled and he told me. This is one of many dear Carolina. The Midnight oil ensure I have places where I can live in comfort and be a ghost. I love Reno. We are just ghost in the city of sin. We need to celebrate life, know pleasure, be fearless and swim in happiness. Life should be simple dear Carolina. I need a kind woman, good drink, the China molasses and never tasting the sin of dirt again.

I asked him, what is China molasses? He smiled and he asked her. Have you try the opium yet? Opium is the medicine of the wise. Your opium dreams belong to you. It opened up the mind to the wonder of everything and you will know euphoria of things you cannot see or know now. She thought a minute and she told him. My mind is heavy and maybe the China molasses can relax my mind? What are we doing today Lawrence? He took my hands and he told me. We will get acquainted. We will enjoy the pool, eat a good dinner of seafood and prime rib. And later a show in the city. I told him, I brought no bathing suit and the food sound so good. He told her. The room near the pool, many bathing suits. they are new and I hope you like? I picked them out myself and I guessed your measurements. I hope I did well? I told him, you are very kind and generous to me. I appreciate and I don’t deserve. He smiled, he took my right hand and he kissed my hand/. He told me. You are pearl that was hidden away in a shell. You have been locked-up, lied to and now you will learn the truth. When we understand, life should be pleasure and more pleasure. Skin, gin and sin. The three muses we need in a life filled with danger, excitement and hell-bound wishes. We must know. Please Carolina, get dress and I will make us some good drinks to enjoy. I will meet you at the pool with the fresh drinks.

I found the dressing room and I saw five new bathing suit, still wrapped and they were so beautiful. They were expensive and classical. I took the dark blue one, a two piece and I tried on the bathing suit. I looked into a mirror and I told myself. He guessed my size perfectly. I didn’t try on the other ones. I loved the blue bathing suit. Made my pale skin looking tempting. I liked how my body looked and I remember. I haven’t been sexy for anyone in so many years. After the birth of my child. My ex-husband loved the bars and the drink more than me. I saw a different woman in the mirror. I liked her and I wondered. Where was I heading? I went toward the indoor pool and Lawrence stood-up. He told me. You are a Goddess, a poet’s dream, you are. Please sit and tell me a story. He gave me a Tom Collin and he asked me. If something else suit your taste, pleas ask? I told him. Tom Collins are my favorite. Easy on the head and so tasty. I told him, I was a accountant for a large company and they moved to Texas. I have a child and my mother is sick. I don’t know what is happening here? He looked serious and told me. Life should be simple. We should be happy and know some peace. Here In Reno, all sins are forgiven. What was done here in Reno. Stay done. No clean people in this world dear Carolina. You are beautiful, a ginger hair goddess and you have learn to accept little. Maybe if you desire, you can have more? She laughed at his words and she told him. What do you want from me Lawrence?

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We relaxed till four thirty pm. We talked little and I went swimming alone and I enjoyed the chill of the water. Lawrence left and he returned with three books and he changed the music. I liked the music, no words, just music, taking me to a better place and time. I saw myself swimming in the Monterey Bay with my father waving to me.  After I spend one hour in the pool, I went and I sat with him. He told me. You are my Irish girl dream dear Carolina. Your hair of ginger like a resting sea-maiden near the sea. Your eyes, ever-changing and I know your mind always moving and wandering. You are a restless soul and you were held captured for too many years. I have a gift for you. He handed me three books. Hemingway, ” Moveable feast”, Jack Kerouac “Big Sur” and Jack London book “When Gods laugh”. I told him. I love the books and what is this wonderful music Lawrence? The music is Frederic Chopin he told me. He whispered dear Aunti Emma make him create and I love the three books. Hemingway told us the truth and we didn’t listen. Jack London words are so damn true. London told us, most men learn too late. We cannot win. God always win. We are just sheep being led to the slaughter. Better to be the wolf chasing the prey than trying to escape. Better to die with your pride in tact, not begging for mercy from the gods who had forgotten us. This is our decision dear Carolina. You asked me earlier. What do I want from you? This late afternoon, a slow dance near the pool and for us to enjoy some wine and some good food. I need some tomfoolery dear Carolina. He stood-up and he asked for a dance. I stood-up and I fell into his arms. He was still good looking, in his early fifties, dark brown skin and the blackest hair and eyes I ever seen. We danced to the flowing music and I liked the feel of his body near. He told me. You feel like a tropical paradise, a wonder lust dreams and a dangerous sea. Are you siren or muse dear Carolina? I laughed at his words and I told him. I could be both.

 We went to the kitchen. The food of spicy seafoods and the rib-eye steaks wrapped tightly and smelling so good. A large salad was prepared and two wine glasses and a bottle of red wine were waiting. I ate the meal slowly and Lawrence watched me. He laughed and he told me. Dear Carolina. You will become a Reno’s legend. You enjoy the pleasures of life. We must Carolina. We had light conversation and we drank the red wine. A woman came and she cleaned the table and he told me. Time to prepare for the night. Thank you beautiful Carolina for the wonderful day.

I went to a private room and I found some new clothing. A silky black dress, black stockings, silky panties and bra. I caressed the softness of the material and I felt hot and sexy for the first time in 10 years. I laughed at my thoughts. I told the mirror, seeing herself in the bathing suit. I feel passion in my old bones and I smiled and I laughed. I dressed slowly and I twirled in front of the mirror in the black dress. I told the mirror. Am I pretty? I went to the kitchen and Lawrence turned and he saw me. He told me. Your smile, your laughter, for me is ambrosia. He came to me and he told me. Tonight will be your last night in the hotel Carolina. If you want? I can find you a apartment in Midtown. I smiled and I looked sad. I have nothing to give you back in return Lawrence. He embrace me tightly and he whispered. Life is give and take. I know Carolina, everything we want, cost something. Sometime can cost us everything we loved or believe worthwhile.

Coyote