You have saved me.
Life is fair. We must be saved and we must save the people we love.
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You have saved me
A Poem by Coyote Poetry
“For the many people who gave me hope when I had none.”
You have saved me.
I remember sitting alone. Holding two brother’s photos.
Suicide was their escape from the cold and heartless world.
Two Ojibwa/Mexican boys who saw no road except death as peace.
I caressed my 30-30 rifle.
I didn’t see any reason to keep going.
Their death laid heavy on my soul.
The phone started to ring. I answered the call.
An old voice with kindness. My Grandmother begin to speak to me.
“We miss and love you baby. I want to see you. The family need you. Are you Okay? Grandma need her baby boy alive and strong.”
I hung the phone up,
I put the 30-30 in the closet.
My Grandmother knew somehow, I needed kind words. She saved me.
I was drinking myself to death.
I lost my first true love,
I saw no reason to give a shit.
My friends were not helping in Germany.
Drinking was our peace.
My time in Germany was getting short.
I decided to say goodbye to my old lover.
I went to her and
I found her crying.
She yelled at me.
She told me he is dead. Are you happy?
I told her I knew nothing and I was sorry.
I held her for three days.
I brought her good whiskey and food.
ensured she was okay.
She asked me. Why was I being kind to her?
I wasn’t kind to you.
I kissed her forehead.
Silence was my answer.
I came to her for a goodbye and
I tried to save her.
Somehow, I saved myself too.
Life is a fair journey. We must love and protect our family and friends.
Kindness bring kindness. Forgiveness needs time and a lot of love.
We must be saved, and we must return the kindness.
Laughter is life. We must hold on to it.
Coyote
March 2011