I try to remember…

I try to remember..

(Written in 1992/re-written in 2014)

I tried to remember the curves of your body.  Us blindfolded  by wild need and want on the cold days of Winter. I want to remember my hands touching soft and wanting skin. We were sweeps away by the chaos of the night and we held each other in a lingering silence till the morning light.

We had our dirty ashtrays and empty bottles of Jack Daniel whiskey. You would smoke your cigarettes and told me, sitting nude upon the soft bed.  If I had the sea, I’m free. I want us laying upon a quiet beach. You writing poetry and I adsorbing the tropical sun. I’m tire of the madness of Winter. I want to be outdoors sitting with the trees.

I tried to erase the memory of you. All I can see in sweet dreams is two people wrapped together. Only the two heartbeats interrupting the long night. Words were not necessary for us. We were complete for I saw the highway and dreams in your eyes and you saw me needing you too much. I was hanging on to paradise by a thread and you were planning your escape.

When the dreams are kind. I find you again. Your eyes are still bright and hopeful. We fall together like children unafraid of love and  I would tell you. You were my shining star. You made me understand. Love was real and powerful.

Sweet dreams turn to nightmares than nightmares turn to sweet dreams.  Time and distance make the pain seem less. It is sad we learn too late. Love isn’t fair. Need two people at the same place with the same needs. Rarely will happen.

What would I give to find you in real life. To find out did you find the dreams and goals you wanted? For now the memories of a beautiful German girl who stole my heart can still sneak-up on me. Making me wish for things I cannot have.

Coyote