Please read the poem. A powerful message by a amazing writer.


I Lived

A Story by Kathryn Smith(Thank you Kathryn)

Hope if everybody runs

you choose to stay

Miracles.

Some people believe in them.

Some people don’t.

I am living proof there is such thing as a miracle.

If you think about it, we all are.

Tomorrow I will be turning 23.

Each Birthday is such a triumph for me.  

When my mother was expecting me, I wasn’t growing.

No one could figure out why.

My parents took it so far to the highest scientific doctors and even they couldn’t find the reason.

I was due in September.

The doctors told my parents to get an abortion.

If they didn’t get an abortion, I wouldn’t survive.

If I did survive, I would most likely be severely handicapped.

If I lived, I would die by the time I was 3.

Thank God my parents had faith in me.

Most people these days would sadly choose abortion.

I was taken C-Section on July 21st, 1992 at 5:12 PM.

Everyone was so excited because I was crying.

It was a small cry, but it meant my lungs were well developed.

I was 1 pound 6 ounces.

You could fit a wedding ring around my leg.

I stayed in the NICU for months fighting for my life.

The odds were stacked against me, and I nearly died multiple times, but I pulled through.

On October 6th, my parents wedding anniversary, they took me home.

My birth story made the front page of the newspaper.

I re read it recently and read that my parents were in the process of planning my funeral.

To this day, I am so thankful to be here.

To be alive.

I feel guilty when I see other people who have severe special needs.

That was supposed to be me.

What did I do, to be so damn lucky?

Sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve to be so lucky.

I want so badly to revisit the NICU and to see the parents.

The parents who have dying babies.

Children who like me, have a bleak diagnosis and future, read by doctors.

I want to talk to the Mothers and Fathers who are giving up hope.

I desperately want to tell them to be there for their children.

They need to have faith.

I lived.

I lived and their child just might too.

Miracles really do happen.

and I am now 23!

Many years ahead of 3.

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© 2015 Kathryn Smith

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