I called your name

Beautiful lady  weeped for me. I departed for unknown destination. I didn’t know. First tears will take us to weight-filled memories and places amidst lonely descended wants and needs.

She told me. “You was driven  into madness with uncontrolled anger. You joined a war and you would forget promises made and forget my face as soon as you escaped my view.”

I didn’t know. Her first tears and last tears for me would mark me forever. Leave me with agonizing  grief, that would be learned when I returned home from my wars. Learning her bleeding heart found someone who would stay with her and entwine their two lives together.

I knew I soiled a sweet love. I had captive a sweet woman and left her for the gamble of war and the highway. She told me once. “True love leave two people with the oneness in heart and mind. I love you so and I believe you love the wine and song more then me.”

Dear woman knew.  I wanted the wine and song. I drank till I was not drunk anymore and I walk to the deep sea.

I called your name and I knew. You would not come.
Coyote/John Castellenas