Family

They use my body as a piñata

Something to poke at

Make fun of, scrutinize, judge

Something to criticize, analyze, and magnify

Constantly under examination.

Comparison with others. Be like them.

Caring about my body gives them purpose.

They care you see.

One day the dream: smaller bodies can crawl out of your body.

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Love

He uses my body for entertainment

Reaching climax every time

Inside my body, on my body, thinking about my body

No one proposes to my body, makes grand romantic gestures

No one announces publicly love towards my body

It’s always in secret.

No one travels with my body,

No one discovers hidden secrets of the universe with my body

He uses my body as an extra body to his musical debut

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But that’s okay. I’ll watch from afar

While other bodies get loved, are wanted, desired

While other bodies are cared for.