‘Savior, liar and sinner’
Savior, liar and sinner
Once I was saved.
Pretty red-hair girl took my hands and she whispered.
I love you Johnnie. Please don’t die, please live for me.
She held me tightly and she sang gentle words of love to me.
I miss you my red-hair beauty. You were my savior.
I never show her my real face.
I loved the road, the drink and the flesh.
I needed confusion and disappointment.
Today I would tell her If I could.
Dear Leona.
You were perfect and I was the fool.
I was a liar.
Seeking the Hemingway death,
just waiting to run again.
I went back to Ann Arbor and you were gone.
I did the sinner’s prayer.
“Dear Leona.
Precious lady.
Old dogs return home, wanting things lost.
Thank you dear friend.
You were my safe place for a wild man seeking everything and nothing.
I pray you found joy and happiness.”
Men seeking war, the drink and the sin.
One day awake alone and
they learn.
People willing to save you are rare and few.
Old man looked to the open road and he whispered.
Dear Savior, my dear Leona.
I do remember your beautiful face.
John Castellenas/Coyote
Yes that could be worth trying. Thanks for the suggestion. 🙂
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Thank you for your support. Yes I am planning on having a little more therapy first. Facing things one little bit at a time.
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Writing can help. My worst days. I wrote on paper my deep and painful thoughts. I don’t post. Discussing and facing make you stronger.
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I used to write things down as part of my therapy . I had to destroy them immediately in case they were found. I publish this blog and haven’t told any of my friends or family. I can say things without making them worry. They support me enough as it is.
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I have study many religions. One of them had a cool remedy for regret and pain. Write down the regret and pain on paper. Burn the paper. Take the regret and pain away. Maybe myth and tale. I believe could.
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The video of Ed Sheeran’s is one of my favourites of his at the moment. I really like your new post. It moved me and I have to admire that you can write about love, sadness, longing and regret so well. I wish I could do the same. I came to WordPress with the intention of addressing some serious issues. It’s not happening. Thanks for sharing.
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Only to repair a serious issues. Is to face it. I hope you can and thank you for reading and the comment. I do appreciate.
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