Your love’s like Heroin..
Your love’s like Heroin
Lace and silk, whiskey and sin, pain and misery we loved. I loved to watch you paint your beautiful face and I told you. You are a natural beauty. Your pale skin and your face. Men would die for. I asked you. Are you hiding your true face my lady love?
You sat bare-ass on a soft chair facing the mirror. You turned to me and you told me. Johnnie, Johnnie, you are addicted to me. I am your Heroin and you do not want to see how ugly I became. I was once a beauty, damn cigarettes, booze and drugs. And I love the damn men who would steal everything from me. Johnnie, Johnnie. You are just a con man with a poet’s face. You don’t want love. You want to become a part of me. You love us fighting in a bed of sin, gin and the liar’s prayer. You taught me well lover. Say the words Johnnie.
“The lover’s prayer.
Bliss, kiss and skin.
Take and take,
steal and steal more.
Bleeding and screaming till we can fuck no-more,
lying, dying and crying we do love.
We love the black night, the strong whiskey and feeling so damn good.
We pray to the Goddess of the night.
Give me more and give me more.
Make me believe. Love is near us and so damn far away.
Half-drunk kisses, lazy hugs and words of gratitude.This is what I want.”‘
Carolina smiled and she whispered. We have Reno, we have our secret place. I love you word man. Maybe you can’t see the truth no-more and I am your Heroin. Maybe this is all we have.
Coyote
I too love the music video at the beginning of your post. Again and again John your writing is magnificent. I am/was in love with a toxic person and maybe it is unfair to label him this way, but I craved him just like heroin.
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The song is so good. Some people need more, want more. This is why we need them my dear friend. Thank you for reading and the comment.
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You are the only person I follow who consistently surprises me with music video that I have never heard of, and that I absolutely love. Thank you for that, my friend. And as to loving someone who is bad for us…I was in that relationship, just once. And I will never forget him. I still dream of him once in awhile. Our love was so toxic, but so intoxicating…..
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Dear Nora. Me too. When I was young and brave. I liked the dangerous people. I was a little dangerous and thank you for reading and the comment.
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When I was young, I was a little dangerous too, Coyote…but my wild heart has settled down some, thankfully ❤
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Now I am the grandpa. I have five wild grandchildren.
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Smiles. I imagine you see yourself in them at times…..
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I do. They keep me young. I take them to the lakes and the carnivals. I show them. Life can be fun.
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There is great joy to be had in life….we just have to get over ourselves and not take it all so seriously 🙂
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wow! how many relationships do we know or have we been in that have been toxic like this? wonderful writing..
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Most of us have known the toxic relationships. They are the ones we remember. Thank you for reading and the comment.
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