Too late for forgiveness…

(Two of my brothers. Committed suicide one year apart. One in 1987 and one in 1988)
Too late for forgiveness
A Poem by Coyote Poetry
A old poem. A sad one. If you feel death is more important then life. Please call me. Maybe I can help.![]()
Too late for forgiveness…..
Second brother put into the cold earth.
Death by their own hands.
Left many to swim in bad decisions and not enough kind words.
The things I believed in.
Became useless and not fruitful anymore.
Words said without thoughts or kindness.
Left my soul in blackness.
I wished too late to take back words that degrade a life of a brother.
I learn the important things we must believe are simple and plain.
I learn we must rise and fall. Cry and laugh. Beg and demand.
I chisel my brother names into a old Oak tree.
I asked the Spirit of life and death to forgive me for being a bastard instead of a friend.
Silence and loneliness left me be to the solitude of pen and paper.
I learn we are all mortals.
Too blind to see beyond our own glory.
Till names of the dead are carved in your chest.
Today I remember two strong boys who showed no fear.
The hidden demons no-one saw.
Took them to a rope and no goodbye.
Their death made me more gentle in action and in words.
The dream of wealth became less needed.
Now I offer a open door to friends and family.
I will listen to someone who is struggling and try to help.
I don’t believe you can be forgiven.
Lonely graves of two scared boys are permanent scars on a mind and heart.
No-one cared that they saw death was more sweet then life.
I wished I’d listen to a wise grandfather.
“Nothing good to say. Say nothing. Negative words and actions can
caused permanent damage.”
Better to be a friend then be standing by a casket saying a final goodbye.
Coyote’
Thank you for sharing Dear Friend. I lost my older brother very early in this life to a drug overdose. My little 15 year old spirit was shattered for he was my best friend and my hero. He was everything a big brother should be; my guide, protection and such a wise encouraging man. I am sending big hugs to you. 🙏🏾🕊
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Thank you dear Lisa. Losing our brother or sister. Leave a empty hole in our heart.
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Yes it does…not a day goes by that I don’t think of him💙
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so sorry to know that you and your parents had to go through this horrible thing! They were just kids! my heart goes out for your mother!
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Was hard days my dear friend. Made me kinder and I listen now. Thank you for reading and the kind words.
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Oh……John…..what madness prevailed within your family………I understand those that took their lives, I tried when I was 14, however the Good Lord above never allowed it to go all the way. My brother came home found me and called the ambulance.
I suffered terrible depressions throughout my adult life, why? Because of the evil workings of my parents, mostly the evil came through my mother, and some adults….sexual abuse as a toddler and such.
I can only imagine how you have suffered from the guilt of not being there for them.
No judgement here, you obviously had your own terrible struggles and just could not relate.
However, the Lord forgives all of our sinful and unrighteous works, that is why He died, crucified, the shedding of His Blood for the forgiveness of those sins. Once that happens, forever forgiven for He paid the price and a true relationship begins with Him, it is a real life by the Faith of Christ, and NOT any religious act or following. Just Him and Him alone…..forever loved……..
May HE comfort you……….
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They did drugs. The drugs make them weak. I hope they found peace in another world. Thank you my friend.
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You learned a great lesson in love, empathy, and kindness. But what a way to learn it. I’m so sorry you had to go through this.
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Most of us learn too late. Some people are afraid. Thank you H. Marie for reading and the kind words.
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How very sad, John. Suicide leaves so many questions unanswered and to lose two brothers, I can only imagine your grief. Sending you lots of love and healing light. ❤👩🦰❤
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I agree dear Carolyn. Suicide leave great sadness. Thank you for reading and the kind words. I do appreciate. I see their faces in my grandchild.
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I’m am so sorry
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Was a long time ago. I lived in Ann Arbor in those days. I joined a war to escape. Thank you dear Beth for the kind words.
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Oh, John….sending you so many hugs right now, my friend ❤
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Hello dear Nora. Even with 33 years. I keep their memory alive. Us, who need to write. We try to keep the people we loved. Alive with words. Thank you for reading and the comment.
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“Lonely graves of two …” I can only imagine the grief, and the courage of spirit it takes to heal
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Thank you dear Monika. With time and distance. Less painful. It was a lesson for me. Be kinder and listen to the people near.
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Loved the poem and the sentiments expressed. Sending healing thoughts though that is so trivial measured against unimaginable pain.
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We learn with time. We must be kinder to each other. Thank you my friend for reading and the kind words.
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